Hello Fellow Being, I was born in a small town in the United States of America called Short Creek. I was given the name Doriann Gaylene by a 19 year old German Dutch immigrant teenager raised in the USA after coming to America at age 3, and a 25 year old Scottish, English grandchild of immigrants who came to America to participate in the new founded Mormon religion. Both of my parents, parents left the Mormon Church later on in their lives to participate with Mormon Polygamist groups where practicing plural marriage could be hoped for and even practiced if one was deemed worthy and appointed to participate. My parents were required to turn themselves over to the (Priesthood Authorities), those whom perceived themselves to be worthy to rule over the common people because of their greater connection with God than others, through perceived direct revelation.
I was born into and raised to be a commodity without natural affection … born and raised to serve my parents, their community, their leaders and ultimately their God. All the grown ups considered themselves to be elite in the eyes of God for living the higher law of polygamy which in their own eyes raised their value to be the highest above and beyond anyone else upon earth. My parents chose to participate along with my grandparents turning their will over to these men who eventually placed the two of them together in marriage. With little to almost no personal connection with one another, coupled with their insecurities and a whole lot of misfit causing some extreme estranged behaviors, all of which made for a very interesting childhood to say the least. I was the oldest of 10 children from my mother and another 7 born later, with his step sister who was my age, to the man who called himself my father. In my Youth my parents came to utilized alcohol to try to assuage their discomfort from prostituting themselves in different ways with other community members to try to experience any crumbs of each others value. Life as an elitist was not that elite when ones self betrayal (need to judge and be judged) is dished out in generous helpings on self and others all the days long.
Growing up in so much female and male pretentious eliteness though extremely sad and uncomfortable to admit, I was conditioned and became a product of my environment. After many years of doing my best to try to fit into various different versions of polygamy where women and men participated in the beliefs that there daily behaviors and sacrifices warranted Eternal Beings to favor them over the rest of humanity. So much favor that they could become some day rulers over all of humanity and all humanity would be made to serve them. After years of my will being conditioned, molded, brainwashed, manipulated and controlled, I became the next generation who participated and allowed others to brainwash, manipulate and control my children’s minds, hearts and body’s. When I began to experience the levels and layers of my children’s suffering added to my own, these beautiful beings I claimed to love, unbearable shame, guilt and physical emotional pain threw me into an awakening that is still taking place inside of my mind, my heart my being in this day. I began to feel an undeniable crushing weight of this world that opened me to see a lifetime of helplessness and hopelessness which had now grown into cancer, my way out, my escape. My first reaction was relief that my children would no longer have to be embarrassed of my unfit free-willed unworthy existence. Up until then I experienced myself to be one of the least among everyone, everywhere I went. Having been the abused child of a well known free-spirited pedophile who was never held accountable. Facing my possible death by disease at that time allowed me to realize and face many lies, one by one as time as I had known it was ticking away every precious moment I had left with them was coming to an end. Somehow In this place of deep honesty with myself, i came to realize the truth of the real value that I actually had in my own existence, as well as my children’s and every others persons life.
My children’s suffering woke me up fast and furiously to the discomfort I existed in being in my own skin forcing me to become honest with myself which made it impossible for me to play the unreasonable game of pretending that I could ever really please any other God that existed before me.
Letting go of all I had ever been taught I ought to be… became my new cause to exist in such a cold cruel narcissistic reality. It was the beginning of unlearning all that I had been brainwashed with from the time of my birth, for others to be able to continue to influence and control my life until they could lay me in a box and bury my sorry state (ass) of a miserable existence in the ground.
Facing my own demise, ending in an untimely death and the effect this would have on everyone of my my sweet children who had picked me and I felt so responsible for WOKE ME up to pieces of mine and their reality of just how ugly my Ego & Pride as well as the ugly Pride and Ego of others were imposing on eachother and all of the children. Prostituting my mind heart and body and soul for the basic necessities of life was now a big problem. I could no longer whore myself not even for the needs of my children that I had birthed and tried to raise in such an unreasonable dysfunctional society. Finances had always been scarce and made for very limited choices. First things first I had to learn how to provide, for me and my children’s needs, to even begin to see all the choices that were available for us. Our USA government made this more possible for me through food stamps, healthcare and dental care than most women have in this world. A beautiful female friend opened her door to help me begin my solo journey to create a new reality to hopefully free myself and my children. Me and this woman shared rent and expenses as single moms for a year in which I was able to separated a couple of times from the abusive relationship I was entangled in with my little sister and her husband in polygamy. What kind of sister marries her little sister’s husband??? A very insecure brainwashed sister did. :-( This sister passed away of breast cancer this year (2020)….my heart hurts deeply each time I feel all that I have existed as in unconsciousness, the many insecurities and low self esteem and the effects that has had on myself and others experiences.
In 2010 the Marvelous Work And A Wonder, The Sealed Portion Of the Book of Mormon was gifted to me from Christopher Mark Nemelka at Sandy Park on a midsummers day. I will forever remember hearing that beautiful booming voice, as I stepped out of the car and felt the passion of his spirit while sharing with the crowd that was gathered that day. My heart leapt for joy and inside my head I heard myself saying "if ever there was a John the Baptist this would be HIM! My heart raced to hold it in my hands for the first time. Something I had only ever hoped for which it seemed I’d been waiting for eons of time. This was the beginning of growing back my FREE WILL TAPROOT and co-dependency began to take a back seat! Eventually over the next 2 years I was able to move outside of a Berlin Wall (this kind of Religion) that had kept me and my children hostages through FEAR (Control) of their manmade God.
At that time I believed with all my heart that my children would walk out with me after all they had already suffered but instead because of so many years of conditioning some of them stayed behind in the great and spacious building and some of them are still getting the lessons they need until their pain gets bigger than their fear.
My codependency for their safety and wellbeing has been my deepest sorrow which the Marvelous Work and A Wonder consistently assists me with to unravel and put all things into a real truth perspective so that I can do my part to support what this world needs next to provide for the hearts, minds and physical body's needs of all mothers and fathers and their children.
In Short after years and years of doing more than I was honestly willing, and dishonestly did anyway to try to accommodate others for me to experience any amount of consistent, sincere, real lasting value from family, friends and perceived loved ones doing all humanly possible to serve, be loved and others feel my love even if necessary to make others comfort and needs more important over and over at my own expense, to be able to perceive my self as goodness, merely existing as a less than, born a commodity and even that without natural affection.
I am so grateful that the VERY IMPORTANT CLUE that a Sealed Portion of the Book of Mormon was going to be available because I had had access to the Book of Mormom all the while I was being groomed by religious folks. And that inspite of all the games and shenanigans adults in religion play the RI message helped ME find ME.
The Real Illuminati have presented Our Entire World with REAL SOLUTIONS that will ELIMINATE POVERTY and INEQUALITY without taking away anyone’s FREE AGENCY.
The Purity of Intention that exudes from each of the RI Works of absolute pure care for Humanity from the Book Of Mormon, The Sealed Portion, The 666, Sacred not Secret, The Trilogy, The Declaration of Independence to the Reformed Declaration, etc...has made all that I have ever suffered from all of the disrespect, disregard, despair, manipulations, self preservation, self betrayal, desecration of ones self and others, perversities, perversions and criminal acts not withstanding pale more and more as such grand scale service and hope takes over in my heart mind body and spirit! A Plan that can provide for all our widows and orphans, and all those who have cause to morn, our tired, our poor, our huddled masses yearning to breath free, our wretched refuse of every teeming shore, our homeless, our tempest tossed, that will end of those who have had to prostitute themselves for their need to just exist along with their little ones. The end of all prostitution unless one desires to consensually!
Everything I have ever longed to understand is consistently answered making perfect sense.
My Daily Restoration: I KNOW NOTHING OF MYSELF
…Learning how to exist in sincere respect and regard for myself and others.
…Learning even what I could never in all of time know about love life & liberty, having little to no reference of any real truth about anything until I was willing to take the time and come to the awareness of those who’s love is beyond any mortal beings…. these who serve and serve and serve with the Patience of Saints this world beyond anything I have ever imagined even possible.
A challenge i have had in witnessing all of the survival of the fittest and for some reason especially my children in their selfish conditioned existence, in a dog eat dog reality to try to survive and my grandchildren growing up being programmed in varying degrees of self survival when it could be otherwise. All of this used to make this reality uncomfortable and sometimes feel unbearable for me. The Real Illuminati’s Plan Offered is my Living Daily Bread because it is available to everyone equally has made waking up each day with Real Hope WANTING TO EXIST IN THIS NEW REALITY here on our earth to support what can provide real lasting PEACE as well as Savoring Real Truth before I lay my head down at night after long days as another commodity who works for the 1% who rule over this world BEARABLE.
Through this WORK I am able to let go of all the NEED for someone else's perceived value of me over MY OWN….Tears Of Appreciation…….A Heart Song Without Words FILLED up with Gratitude
I love to imagine often...
Our One World, United As One People, In One day!
The Plan Declaration Of Reform & Change A Government By Of & For the People Three Book Trilogy and more...
In Eternal Gratitude For The Marvelous Work And A Wonder
These PEARLS OF GREAT PRICE The Real Illuminati & Christopher Mark Nemelkawho have made this all possible for every single person on this planet to have access to equally!!!!!!!!!!